and happy birthday to me:D

edited at the time i found my cable - 8.33am





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i hate my life. totally. 

i should just go and die one day. im sure a lot of ppl does wantmeto disappear from the earth cause they hate to see me so much. 

part1
but before tt maybe i shld just apologise for some stuff i have done cause maybe i wont have a chance to do it ever again: 

sorry to:
1. simin for unable to even draw a smile on ur face today. totally help felt helpless. sorry for embarrassing you at ur hse the previous day. and always breaking my promise of going sch with you when in the end you will always go alone because im never on time.
2. hui see for always quarellinng with you and ask you totally retarded questions. and irritating you by never being on time
3. shin fung for unable to console you at your darkest times and i was only concern abt cc comp tt time.
4. si yuan for always neglecting you and treat you for granted
5. ying ling for everything
6. lim simin for bullying you last year. i felt terrible abt it but couldnt tell you because of my pride. for laughing you short when im not tt tall 
myself. i'm so evil so i shld just go die.
7. annabelle for everything i have done
8. jie le for quarelling with you over stupid stuff
9. huimin for taking you for granted and not understanding you at times
10. shannon for always blurting out ur secrets and making u malu. i allow you to kill me but i think i will act faster than you.
11. laura for always not being understanding about ur point of view and insists tt u r always wrong
12. zhi qi for always laughing at you
13. you for helping you to jio her and suddenly just turn my back against you. but she really cant take any longer. im sry
14. to everyone for being vulgar, violent, retarded and idiotic
 
im totally hopeless so just ignore me. dont ever talk to me or you will get my retarded illness.

part 2
i know im heartless but im sorry i cant feel anything, anymore

i know im hopeless, im stupid and im just a retard who cant do anything well. but pls do not implicate my frens. they have nth to do with this. hanging out with them does not influence me or make me dont have time to study.since you want to seeme study so much, i will show you.showing you for the sake of showing cause i totally dont know the true meaning of for the benefit of myself. 

i cant even not fall asleep at all on the floor everyday and irritate you.not that i want it but i cane help it. i dont know the hell is wrong me.

fine. i just have to admit im retarded. im sry for being so retarded and to disgrace you to tell ppl im ur daughter. maybe u shld just disown and leave me at a corner to rot cause im just dirt in the first place. i shld just go die.

buy a gun and aim it at my head. i will do it myself if u dont know how to cause i find it disgusting to be on the earth even a second longer.

bang. 

im dead.

tmr is the day that we have worked for 3mths. tmr is the day tt the whole team has been waiting for.

i'm so nervous rite now tt im learning the itc dance instead of sleeping. but so sad.only managed to learn the first 20secs only and i doubt i can dance well. aiya so sian leh. but it so nice.i love the dance we are dancing but's its hard;(

counting down to cc comp: 9hrs 30min

omg. today prove me right again:D 

i really love rvnps308.i'm sure everybody in the sqd also do. today after cca more than half of the sqd stayed back to play captain's ball tgt. it was so fun. the boys were so sucky. they keep winning!!! but no doubt it was fun and filled with laughter.

aiyo. i really scared i cant take it when we need to leave each other ;(

and both teams must jia you for the cc comp. really wish we can get into finals leh. at least must win new town.hate them! especially tt person:P jia yous andi hope can see lots of ppl support us on tt day!

counting down to the cc comp: guys-4 days girls-11 days

jia yous!

p.s. i hate my juniors! "buck up lah sec 3s" wadeva. they are in no position to say us lah. and they still elbow simin and pull hui min's hair. wth! even they dunno the rules also have basic respect for their seniors lah! go die lah!

totally pissed off today. 

initially was quite happy cause i bought a high cut converse shoe which only cost $15.60. what a bargain! but after tt i went op and ip zone. sucks lah. everything dont have my size. totally spoil my mood cannot have smaller size meh. unfair for ppl like me. not only me, laura and zhiqi oso cant find size to fit loh. means i forever dont need to buy new bottoms already lah. D; 

cant they have designs for petite ppl. stupid lah. they seriously need to improve. bleah!

pissed.

then after tt my mum wanted to cheer me up by buying a chicken pie at pie kia knowing im pissed cause i was sulking. then after tt got sb queue in front of me. but the other 2 salegirls or whatever u call them was like chatting and totally ignored my mum. then my mushroom chicken pie got 'koop-ed' by the person in front of me. if they had like come earlier and stop chatting i could have got it lah. another thing that totally spoil my mood so i totally give her tt damn pissed and sian look cause she gave me a very innocent 'opps' look. pissed me off lah. have better service lah then i can get my mushroom chicken pie. so i had to get the not so wanted roasted chicken pie which taste so so-so lah. think it is a totally waste of money actually. but actually smells gd lah. my mood got improve la because my mum actually tried to cheer me up. thanks mum. ILU!

but i have to say tt their pies really smell gd so try smelling one day. but maybe consider before buying and dont be that tempted when u smell it.

hello. this is a random post. today after cca ate with my dear sqd mates simin, hui min, zhi qi and laura. we talk about a lot of things like how sucky school and other things as well.

zhi qi say sth tt was quite correct. she said that it is to our advantage if we take the o-level though the sec 4 ip cert is better. cause lots of the better sch are already ip so if we take the o-levels we will be one of the top schools taking the o-levels and hence will be much more easier for us to score well. quite true rite? but too bad lah, our whole sch is registered under some stupid ip programme that does not allow us to take o-levels as a private candidate. wadeva lah. 

and simin said tt when ying ling transferred she actually wanted to too. but it's too late to say anything now. if we transfer sch to some under sch not under ip programmme means tt we wasted our past 2 years studying under ip and obviously u wont like transfer to another ip sch cause it's stupid? 

zhiqi, simin and laura were like saying how the sch is doing things to face the publis and moe. i have to agree. they do things like moderation and most imptly changing our sch uniform to sth tt sucks. the pe shirt sucks totally. they allowed us to have a design of the new uniform and ask us to submit but it is useless? we submitted but doubt they even considered. which stupid idiot will come up with such a stupid design of the sch uniform which i saw 3 schs which resembles already. too original le bah. come up with sth creative lah. stupid.

must be wondering wad hui min must be doing all this while. well chatting with yin shiuan via sms or rather threatening him to ask jie le to throw away his badges. haha. and he keep saying how short i am. wadeva lah. and i was the one who replied him: thanks ah it was leetheng who replied u and is talking to u rite now. so stupid lah:P

then we took bus home tgt and were saying how sad it will be if we had transfered sch cause we will miss our sqd mates. since i join the cc comp, i start to really love the whole sqd. i mean really. even all the guys like wei sheng, yicheng etc. aiyo i think i will cry like siao when we part at sec 4. 

i love u rvnp s308!

this randome post is soooo long